So long story short I was scrolling through the subreddit r/egg_irl one night while taking a shit, because at the time I was just looking at whatever memes from whatever niche communities on Reddit out of sheer boredom, and so here I was laughing at all these memes made by trans people about trans people who haven't realized they're trans yet, and I'm sitting there thinking "haha yeah I know exactly what that feels like!" or "haha true as fuck" or whatever and I come across a meme that specifically kind of points that out to me, like "hey if you're relating to these memes maybe think about that for a second lol" and it all just kind of hit me at once.

Since writing this song and thinking a LOT about gender and what it means and who I am and what I identify with and whatnot, I think I'm a lot more comfortable now being loosely defined as a "dude".
I don't so much think the dysphoria I do get is physical, because the idea of being curvy and having big badonkers kind of weirds me out just as much as it weirds me out to have a human body of any kind anyway - rather I think it's more just social, like kinda how Kurt Kobain talks about it. Just generally not vibing with the whole manhood thing.

Anyway, maybe I'll change my mind again in the future, I don't really know, but I know that when I wrote this song, I was very much in the thick of thinking about it and not really knowing or not.

Like a Schrodinger's Egg or something, I don't know.